"you are not define by your giftings". That phrase stood out to me as I listen to Pastor Jude's message called "become". Our short term mission can be related to our giftings, but out long term mission is becoming a worshipper of God. Then i started thinking....what is a worshipper? it reminds me to King David, an undignified, undone worshipper. I believe a worshipper is someone who looks at God in awe whether it's good or bad, a worshipper is humble. a worshipper is filled with joy and thankfulness. as i evaluate myself, i start to think that im not reallie an "all-time" worshipper. there were so many times when i should have gave thanks, but i didn't....what kinda worshipper am i?

it was such a rainy day. when i was on the street car going home, my mom called and asked if i wanna ride from sheppard station. awww yayy :) it was goood. i didnt have to be all soaked!

aiyoh...my tummy is huge again...well...not huge..but just big enough that it bothers me :P gonna do some situps after this.

today an argument between a few designers and the production head started because of sth i did...again. what happened was, there was a full pack that i had to roll out earlier last week, and the file is HUGE, so all i had to do was to build it in low rez, and then send it to the printer with callouts saying what needs to be done. It turned out that they need a high rez image of the frost. but we don't have it because it was done in low rez. so i asked bri and robyn to help me out to see what i should do about it. they suggested to find sth similar to what i had...which it makes sense, because what I'd done in low rez was only a guide anyways. So i called the account manger and let her know the situation and she was cool. but then later....the production head came over and started telling me that i have to rebuild the whole file so that the printers would know exactly what they need to do. I was shocked...coz i mean...it's just putting frost around the pack..how hard can it be? why do i need to rebuild it? So while this whole convo was going on between production head and I, Bri and Robyn came over and told the production head that we've discussed issues like that during the design meeting and the creative director had said that we only need to art direct in a situation like this, and don't need to do the physical work. The production head got pretty pissed...and he said he needs to talk to the creative director. After that, we went back to our desks, and the production head disappeared. i don't think i did anything wrong...but man...why does it have to be me that's in a sticky situation again. It's making me nervy especially when the review is this week and next week. *pouts

in some ways it's kinda cool that we, the designers kinda have each other's back. im just thinking...i was trying to voice my opinion and tell the production head that i shouldnt be doing it..but he didnt listen...but when bri and robyn spoke up, he couldn't say anything. i guess next time i will need to use the creative director's name. haha

just now, my mom wanted to order more body shop alike products online because she got them in buffalo and would want to get some more. after doing a 40mins online shopping and picking...it turned out that it doesnt ship to canada. BOOOO. tooooo bad. haha

my parents are backkk from buffalo shopping! man...did they get a lot of stuff...when i open the car door, it scared meee....it was like...almost of full van of stuff. haha didnt get too much for me, but it's ok, i got quite a bit this weekend too :P i actually took some advice from a fashion designer gonna be about a week ago as to what kinda clothes would look good on me. Remember the blue sweater i got? (called a tunic), she suggested that i should get sth like that, with leggings. i saw her today again during dinner and told her that i took her advice. she was really happy to hear that. she's someone who have really low self-esteem, so that's what i wanna tell her that im taking her advice. hopefully it will make her feel more confident about herself :)

neways, i want to say it was really nice of u to get me that little converse :) it was really sweet. it's not so much that it's a converse (even tho it is beautiful!), but that u thot of me even tho we werent in the best terms. that made my heart melt. i showed it to my brother, and he asked how come it's not a green one. and i told him i don't care, it's the thought that counts. it didnt feel nice at all when we didn't really talk while waiting for the bus. but when i think about it now, it made me giggle, coz u looked so mo loi and didn't know what to do. ..but then u still thought of me. i don't know...as odd as it sounds, that is sweet.

can i tell u again that i love being in your arms?

better is today :)

it's such a beautiful morning, just like how i'd like to have on a saturday morning. im looking out the window, with the sun gently shinning on my face, glistening white snow on every roof top...with some good tunes playing on my itunes. ohh, and 2 red cardinals chasing each other on the tree. it's a beautiful morning :) it makes me feel especially good. 2 houses down, there's a bird feeder and a flock of sparrows are there, nibbing away. it reminds me of His faithfulness, how he even take care of the sparrows, which are less significant than i am. im much more precious to him, He will look after me.

i like mornings. it's a new day, it's another opportunity to have a better day.

just a little thot before first snowfall

winter is cominggg. it's snowinggggg. i like it :) i especially like it when i wake up in the morning and it's all white outside. it looks so pretty when it glistens under the sun. it makes me happy when i see that. can u believe it? christmas is coming soon, sooner than i am anticipating. just now, i wanted to listen to "all i want for christmas is you". it's such a nice song. now the song is even more meaningful :) haha im thinkin so far ahead already.

what do you think of when you think about winter? the first thing that'd come to my mind is..of course snow, but beautiful snow, snow flakes, white hot chocolate, snuggling in bed, laughter....just to name a few.

parents' 25th anniversary

today was my parents' 25th anniversary. counting back, my parents got married when they were 25, 24 and had me when they were 28, 27! that's prettty youngg. it's nice to see them happy tonite :) we went to spring villa for dinner. it was goood. we had shark fins. we took lots of pics for rememberance of this day! when we got home, i got the cake and the music ready while my mom was upstairs in her room puttin the final touches to the gift she gonna give to my dad. one of the songs on the album i gave them was "the wedding march". haha it was funny. my dad and i were like..ok ok , play the music when mom comes down. so my dad was waiting for her on the stairs and me by the cd player. so as soon as she approached to my dad, i played the wedding march, while my dad escorted my mom down the hallway. haha it was like another wedding. it was cute :) afterwards, before we ate the cake, my mom wanted to sing a song to my dad. it was the song my dad dedicated to my mom when they were dating. my dad wrote the lyrics onto a card and gave it to my mom when they started going out. it was the first "love letter" my dad wrote for my mom. at first my mom was singing on her own, then afterwards we joined in with guitar and piano. it was awesome! hehe. my dad kept saying to my bro "aiyohh, that's not how u play it" and took the guitar and started playing it the oldie bom chat chat way. it was kinda out of tune, but it was sweet :)
there wasnt really a big celebration like how some ppl would...no huge parties. just a the family, just one another and a sweet little song, a little cake, but lots of love :)

There's a new world somewhere
They call The Promised Land
And I'll be there some day
If you will hold my hand
I still need you there beside me
No matter what I do
For I know I'll never find another you

There is always someone
For each of us they say
And you'll be my someone
For ever and a day
I could search the whole world over
Until my life is through
But I know I'll never find another you

It's a long, long journey
So stay by my side
When I walk through the storm
You'll be my guide, be my guide

If they gave me a fortune
My treasure would be small
I could lose it all tomorrow
And never mind at all
But if I should lose your love, dear
I don't know what I'll do
For I know I'll never find another you

that reminds me of the first song u sent me. i dun think i'll ever forget.

I'll love you when you hair turns gray, girl
I'll still want you if you gain a little weight, yeah
the way i feel for you will always be the same
Just as long as your love dont change

:)

im not gonna talk about work nemore...it's enough for one day. we've prayed, i've prayed. now God, it's in Your hands. I know You will make everything according to Your plan. Teach me to trust in You.

it was nice to see you after work today. i needed a hug and im glad you were there to hold me. i had a great time today, did you? haha especially when we were at leslie station waiting for your bus. i couldnt stop laughing...hahah prolly looked like an idiot, but whatever, it was fun :P haha it was a good laugh. i liked how we were, just laffing away. i dont know... i find that i like today a lot. i cant reallie pinpoint what made it different. do you feel anything different?

tonite before i went for practice, i had a bit of time, so i went decided to go to timmie's to grab a hot chocolate, so i called mike if he wanted one and asked him to call uncle KY and ru to see if they want anything. i decided to treat them some hot drinks, and timbits instead of getting them to pay. so the 2 of us got french vanilla and got timbits for ru and her siblings. it was a good way to bless them :) i felt all warm and fuzzy after, better than a hot drink in a cold nite like this :)