Sunday, February 24, 2008

a love so profound

"Take delight in the Lord, and he will give you your heart's desire. Commit everything you do to the Lord. Trust Him and He will help you. He will make your innocence radiate like the dawn, and the justice of your cause will shine like the the noonday sun." Psalm 37:4-6

After going to the Watchmen gathering this weekend, I being to understand what this verse means. "Delight in the Lord" is not just doing what He asks us to do, reading the bible, going to church, being in the ministry and serving Him. But delight in the Lord is really laying down what I have before Him and solely focus on what He wants me to do. It's giving up my plans, my agendas and laying it all down at His feet and say, Father, you take control.

In one of the Watchmen gathering from years ago. God used an 11 year old boy to speak to the congregation at the beginning of the service. The boy prayed and hit every point the prophetic team was praying for and hearing. The leaders did not know what to do after the boy spoke..because it was exactly what they were hearing before. The leaders knew it was God speaking. David Demian asked the Lord what he should do now...because no one dared to move or speak. Then God spoke to David, "I've done what I wanted to do" But David thought the service couldn't just end, they have just begun! But God said again, "I've done what I wanted to do. If you have worship now, I will bless you. But if you end now, you will bless me."

Another amazing thing was we didn't have a worship band, or worship leader. We worshipped with a CD playing through the system. But we were able to all enter into worship, a worship I've never experienced. It was so focus. I don't know if I was hearing things...but I felt like angels were worshipping with us on the second night. On the first night, my hands felt so much warmth and something going through my fingers while worshipping. It felt like someone was literally holding onto my hands when I reached out.

Out of all the conferences I've been to so far, I have not felt so dumbfound. I don't know how to put it into words. I pray that this is only the beginning of the journey with Him. I am willing to lay down what I've held on so dearly to and let Him make the decision for me. I don't know how, I don't know what will happen but I trust that when I delight in Him, He will give me my heart's desire. I believe when that happens that desire will no longer be my fleshly desire but His desire will be mine. It's not easy, but I choose to do it because I want to bless Him. It's not my choice but His choice for my life.